Susanna Codes

Hey Kitty, now I make my money being pretty and witty Hey, thank you for the lovely bouquet. There is something really special and beautiful that I am meant to contribute to the world. My divine destiny. It is delicate like a snowflake. That is why I keep on going with everything. This is why I never give up. Today one of my loveliest and most favouritest software engineering mentors  Did something that no one has ever done for me before. We looked at the documentation together and figured out why I couldn’t read it. And then we came up with a strategy for me to read it. And then we said we’d come up with a strategy or a framework for how I approach all other documentation in the future. What a beautiful day. To be actually listened to like this No one has ever taken the time to sit down with me and try to figure out why I can’t read things before  I am a double master of science. I transitioned from customer services to product to engineering within much less than a year. I d...

Magnet ❤️‍🔥 Today something really horrible happened to me. I was leaving my office quietly and then a man barged through the barriers behind me (tailgating me, without his own pass) and got up really really close to me and came up right behind me. He said „sneaking past, sneaking past” but I barely heard it but that was the only warning I had before he was basically pressing up against me and so on. I almost passed out because this is one of my greatest triggers and a colleague had to drive me home. Why am I talking about this? Because why would I not talk about this. I had to wait for a while with my head spinning and the world spinning sprawled up against a wall and in that moment or maybe it was after someone had firmly pulled me onto the bench I thought I did everything right I did everything right I did everything right I learned JavaScript I learned Python I learned react I organise my calendar every day like a madwoman And it’s still not enough It’s still not enough It’s still...

“Take me to yourselves, and do not banish me from your sight” One of my favourite poems was discovered in a cave in Egypt in 1945 along with many other manuscripts. Thunder perfect mind. I didn’t get it the first time. I have been addicted ever since I just still can’t stop listening to it omg. You want the Samaneri Jayasara version though on YouTube - the other ones feel strange. I have so much on my mind and I can’t sleep. So much happened today I raised a pr today but it was in the last minute and before a work social and that is because I had to do some family stuff unexpectedly this afternoon I am meant to be colour coding my calendar to make it easier to understand at a glance where I am spending all of my time - realised I can add tags to colours - nice I am still writing a Christmas quiz for the team and need to chase one or two questions from people I need to process the steps on four different tickets including qa process although one of the four is nearly done I am doing som...

We discussed something called compromise, a brand new concept that I never tried  I am not always a software engineer. I really really care about my work more than anything. My wonderful manager told me today that my frustration is a good asset and that it will be what sees me through it. Frustration means I care. What a beautiful and lovely thing to say. I have resolved to work more closely on problem solving with my mentors. And someone on my team seems quite keen to throw me into the deep end - arrrgh. But only in a good way though - the boat is going to be nearby But all of this is happening On the backdrop of being a real life person as well With traumas With needs  With very real things I need to attend to  The daily, the practical The mundane And sometimes I wonder How did I cram it all into my life Anyway thanks bye bye  Bye