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We’ll Make The Mundane… Our Masterpiece, Part 2 I am off work and probably not meant to be writing this but I think it will be impossible not to write for a day or two… as like a fan I need to stop my whirring as I finally settle. And stopping always gives us time to reflect. And to say: I really love my job. I don’t think that anyone gets this.  The reason I did this and did everything I did last year is because I love my job so so much. The reason I didn’t stop for two seconds after getting laid off (BIG MISTAKE) was because I knew I couldn’t stop with either renewable energy or software engineering. This is because I love the Earth so so much. This is what I do for the Earth. Everything I do I do it for the Earth. This is why I couldn’t lose this job I have now. The story is public info: joined, battled on, had a ten month probation. Now I have period of sick leave as well as a holiday. I am just so tired. I would not ever want to do what I did last year again. Not even for anyt...

Non-Duality Im about to take some time off. Not sure how much yet. Some sick leave and some holiday. I’m pretty sure I need to tone it down a bit. But just how long will be confirmed. So before I totally crash I want to say: you’ve probably seen my posts and wondered what I’m talking about and I just want to clarify that I am not religious  I just love the non dual understanding And that is the understanding that we are all one All people and all things are all one There are no things and there are no people There is only gods presence And if you truly go down to your own experience then you will truly realise that this is true There is no time and there is no space There is only love Thank you

People Writing Songs That Voices Never Share I have to ask myself the same question again. Why am I not reaching my full potential - or at least not yet anyway. But I think I know what I need to do. I need to take care of myself. I bet you won’t expecting that huh?  When I have danced I can work so much better. When I have eaten properly I can work so much better - it is amazing how hard it is to balance work and self care. But most of all I need to come back to God. You think I’m joking but I’m not. I took the time to rest and meditate today in between tasks. Everything resolved itself perfectly. I handled huge merge conflicts that I would not have been able to resolve otherwise. I know who to reach out to and when. “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness.” Truer words were never spoken. Because if you come back to god then all other things are resolved from there. I have to regularly remind myself of this. Not just with my work but with my dance. I get frustrated ...

They Say The Holy Water's Watered Down What I really understand by this is that they're saying that things can be overrated. Or overdone. But my love for my job is real. It is not rated. It is not overdone. I LOVE to look at GitHub to see how many PRs I have done. I love to raise PRs and to push code to GH and I love to use the command line. I love to merge code. And I just love to write code.  I know I've said it before but I will just say it again anyway. I just really, really love to code. I have had to address recently; if I LOVE dancing so much; how do I reconcile it with being a software engineer - even if being a pro dancer is not an option then so many people I know who meditate or dance with me are therapists, healers, coaches. It's rare to be a software dev especially in my dance communities. But I just see it as; software engineering enables me to dance. I can pay for my dance lessons. I can make it a lifelong thing. I can make it a lifelong practice. I can g...

Water So I said in a blog post a while back something powerful. I said that renewable energy takes me back to God, to my core, to my true being, to my true essence. To the one Self. But I said with water it didn't take me back. Water makes me realise that I am already there. And that is more powerful than anything. Balyani says:  " The knower is He and the known is He, the one who sees is He and what is seen is He, the one who arrives is He and what he arrives at is He. No other than He reaches union, no other than He separates from Him .” To emphasise: " No other than He reaches union, no other than He separates from Him .” Whether you know it or not right now, you are God having an experience in human form. A beautiful photo of Burbo Bank in the Wirral - which an AMAZING colleague at work took

Persephone I’ve been given a very clear direction. Focus on: Programming  Problem solving Supporting the team technically I love being given direction. I can never be given it enough. Just like it helps for me to regularly write down and reiterate my own goals so it helps for other people to regularly remind me of my direction as well. I do feel kind of sad sometimes. Tired from everything. The last year that is. But today is full of hope. My dance workshop yesterday was a life changer. And that’s what my thoughts on Persephone are. Persephone found her love in hell. And I found one of my greatest loves in life - 5 Rhythms Dance - on one of the hardest years  I was living in Liverpool and I was having loads of seizures but also living in a city people were really quick to react to it and overreact and I saw so many emergency services. So it was a tough year and one where I had to limit going outside so much. But I found my dance there And so I found my heaven And now dance is ...

Reflecting On A Lifetime of Love for the Earth October 2020. I was finishing my second masters dissertation. I had just done my second masters degree in a row - I had done two in two years. I was so tired. I would sit down to work and then cry and then work. I was physically shaking for the last six weeks of that dissertation  But it was beautifully done and I got such a high mark and it was so beautifully organised And all I could think about was my love for the earth. As that’s why I did it all. And that’s why I do it all. And that’s why I do everything I do. I fell in love with the earth as a little girl. I danced barefoot on the earth.  I have pictures of me hugging trees as a child. I have pictures of me climbing into trees as a child. I climbed fir trees. I have pictures of me hugging trees as an adult too. I talked to the sheep as a child. But as an adult I sung to the cows. During Covid to keep them all company. I have sung to deer too. I sang once to an empty field an...

Why I Love Water So Much When I was nearly fourteen and nearly fifteen I ended up at the same disused hydroelectric dam deep in the French mountains twice. I think by then it was just a reservoir. I stood on the wall of rocks and I felt powerful for the first time in adolescence. I didn’t know what power was. But there on that mountainous wall I found it. I did a project on those lakes and forgot about them. And then at 26 I needed to heal. I was confined to my bed for the whole of January 2021 with a leg injury. Completely insomniac and nocturnal I would lie in bed all night waiting for my family to bring my food, lonely and watching movies, trying to read books that I couldn’t focus on.  And then I began to remember the lakes.  I found a friend’s old Facebook and suddenly those lakes came back to me. As I wrote about them in my Buddha notebook, I began to heal. I went back into the world and embarked on my career in renewable energy and I never forgot those lakes. Two years ...

I like to fly, I build AI There is nothing I love more in the world than to build artificial intelligence. Nothing makes me happier in my life than the fact that I work in an AI team. I started dreaming about working in utilities AI last January and I thought it would take 10-20 years. It took three months. Every day I can’t believe how lucky I am. This feels like some kind of a greatest gift in the world. I often think of Alan Turing. I don’t think that I could’ve done this without the kind of inspiration that he gives me. I know it’s time for me to get organised again. I had a bit of a crash after the probation.  I got a lot done and I built a beautiful dashboard. I was really held by the fact that I had a project with a single focus. This really saved me, I feel. Jumping around projects would’ve been a bit too much following the probation crash. But here I am now. I’m going back to the AnswerBot. Nothing made me feel more alive again than it did when I got back to the AnswerBot ...

We’ll Make The Mundane… A Masterpiece I’m obsessed with Alex Warren at the moment so I may be quoting him a lot. I just want to say. I want to tell you. How beautiful you are and how beautiful each and every moment is. And how the only ever miracle that is ever going to happen is NOW. How the moment… the now is the most beautiful moment. And there is never going to be a more beautiful moment than this one. Here.  Now. I don’t know how to communicate my joy with people. I don’t know how to share my exuberant joy with people. I know that joy doesn’t have to be ecstatic and loud like mine. Joy can be quiet and serene. And still. And it’s just as beautiful. But I am just a very ecstatic dancer… and how we dance is how we live, our lives. I wish I had some tips but I have no tips. I just want to tell you that it is all so beautiful. To dance. To write.  To write code. To push code. To make friends with everyone everywhere you go. To listen to the sounds of the night The night is so...

Self-Study: What is Kubernetes? - Part 1 Fun fact. I once had a mentor at an old job who decided he wanted to teach me Kubernetes. Then my manager put his foot down. No more Kubernetes, he said! I needed to learn more urgent and relevant stuff. So I was barred from learning Kubernetes. To this day I haven't recovered from it. But here I am now. I finally have the opportunity to learn again. What is Kubernetes? Okay so I read the definition in the course and I understood absolutely nothing. Whoops - there were lots of key words but I understood almost none of them. It is something to do with automating deployment. Ah okay. Looks like the definition in the course is the same as on the official website. So at least I know it's not confidential. Here's what it says: "Kubernetes is a portable, extensible, open source platform For managing containerized workloads and services that facilitates both declarative configuration and automation. "It has a large, rapidly growin...

St Paul’s Cathedral I’m in a hotel near St Paul’s. St Paul’s represents everything to me. I first heard “So Long London” by Taylor Swift last year when it came out and I was in my Brighton office a day or so after first hearing it and I began to loop it constantly. The bells at the beginning imitated the sound of St Paul’s. (I passed my probation the day after the last time I spent a night by St. Paul’s. And I’m not so surprised because that song fuelled so much of my passion and motivation for the best part of a whole year). I had NEVER heard anything like it before. Musically, I have been playing and writing music all my life. And that final chorus just throws me. My heart just skips a beat every single time. So what to say then.  All of the nights when I got a too-late train back from London and thought desperately about how to become a better software engineer? All of those late nights spent studying. I don’t think they’re the best way forward anymore. Now I value rest above ev...

Predictive Maintenance  Okay so I have written about predictive maintenance quite a lot actually - both in water and quite a lot in renewable energy especially before joining kraken. The way it all happened was like some kind of a miracle beyond my wildest imaginings tbh - one minute I was researching AI in renewable energy and knowing it was my life purpose. Three months later I was hired to an AI project and then got put in an AI team. It still blows my mind really - honestly. This is such a beautiful example of how the universe works. If you do something out of love but like really really out of love then everything will work out for you. You will not be able to believe the miracles in your life. I never planned to work in AI. But it seems that AI wanted me there. More importantly I think that utilities and water and renewable energy really wanted me there. This is what I argued every week during my meetings. Because when I turned 30 I felt that the pylons were happy. That they ...

Perhaps Love One of my best childhood memories is Perhaps Love by John Denver and Placido Domingo. My mum playing it on the guitar, all of us singing it together, playing it on the CD player. Maybe it was even vinyl at first. I don’t know many other artists who get God like John Denver does.  If you want to find God all you have to do is listen to John Denver. I have been ill with the flu all day. I have been asleep all day. Being ill makes me really sad. It gets me really down. I missed out on so many things today. A team lunch with the new joiners, seeing my old boss back from paternity leave. Dinner after work with a friend in London. I also got assigned loads of work and suddenly feel overwhelmed. I find it hard in my job how work doesn’t come for ages and then suddenly it comes all at once. But it’s because teammates need to know when a project is free so they can allocate the right work to the right people at the right time. I want to do some more research on water tech - lik...